I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights acim. What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’ peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.
Prayer is exchanging (sharing) a Music of Love and Development or judgments of the pride centered on what you request (agree with) in the mind. There is number other way. In the Program, your brain (content) is separate between God and the ego; and you are selecting constantly with an area as reason for effect.
Forms (all points of the world) are miscreations highlighting the ego’s judgmental thought system. We’ve managed to get up (miscreated this world) and can provide it down any time by correcting your brain (forgiveness). True prayer needs this modification of the mind as Lord has nothing regarding forms.
What Prayer is Perhaps not:
As you are usually deciding, that which you request when you hope is what counts. Whenever you plead in prayer to possess Lord repair an application problem with another variety problem, you’re wondering the pride brain for help (not God). These types and wants are deemed more essential than God’s Enjoy that will remain concealed to the degree you select the illusion.
All outside things (forms) are needs. Other labels are wants, desires, position, issues, nausea, individual love (special relationships), gifts and objectives nowadays, etc. They are that which you pick as substitutes for God’s Enjoy and the ego may pose the objective of prayer by using them to help the illusion. Thus, prayer cannot be about “forms” or “needs” in any way.